When we all begin flying the reasons are remarkably similar and include a desire to travel the world and work with people. Flight attendants are a diverse group, though, and once the crazy days of no schedule and just flying, sleeping and partying (sort of an extension of college) settled down so did most of the flight attendants I knew. We discovered that this was an amazing job that gave us incredible freedom to pursue interests outside of work. Those that started families found that they were home with their kids more than any other working Moms. Others became gifted photographers and artists with their free time. I chose to go back to school and pursue graduate studies in accounting and become a CPA. Others were my jumpseat study partners as they became lawyers and nurses.
Those of us who were in school or had kids usually chose to fly the all night turn-arounds where we would go to work around 10:00 pm and get back home around 7 am the next morning. We would fly out to LA and back or to Atlanta and back, sometimes with a few hours to rest during the night. These were actually very desirable trips since there were a lot of crew members that were parents or in school that coveted that schedule. Since these were coveted, and I went back to school after just 5 years flying, I could only fly one of the less appealing all nighters. Four nights a week I would fly from Dallas to Jackson, MS to Shreveport, LA and then sit for 2 hours. This is where it got really glamorous and you’re going to wish you had worked this job, if only for a while…
Shreveport did not have a “crew lounge” since it wasn’t a crew base. Makes sense. They were kind enough to allow us to use their conference room (reads: long table with chairs around it) to rest quietly while we waited to depart for Atlanta.There were 3 flight attendants (we were on a 727) so 2 pushed chairs together to sleep on and one slept up on the table. We brought our own pillows from home and left them there in garbage bags with our own blankets to make it “homey.” It was lovely.
This room was all windows on one end which looked out at the ramp where our jet was parked. This was incredibly convenient for us. Our pilots were just coming off a layover each morning, so when they boarded the plane and fired her up and turned on the lights, that room lit up like Christmas! OK, wakey wakey!! We would all jump up, grunt at each other. Take turns in the bathroom and head up to do it again. That is so glamorous right???
On this hot August morning, August 31, 1988, we boarded our flight and were glad to see 3 of our favorite pilots. These guys were just a delight to fly with. They were always on top of their game and they were easy going and calm. It was going to be a good finish to our day. We flew to Atlanta where the flight number changed for the return trip to Dallas which is a typical scenario. It became flight 1141 and was scheduled to fly from Atlanta to Dallas/Ft. Worth and then continue on to Salt Lake City.
After an uneventful flight, our cabin crew got off and finished our “day” every morning in DFW, and ironically, one of the more junior crews in the base always handed the plane over to the most senior cabin crew in the base. They also were on a turn around, but it flew during the day and just a few days a week. Even though we were senior enough to know what we were doing, they always debriefed us to make sure we had ordered exactly what they wanted for their leg of the trip. It was just a running grin between the two crews and that day was no different. Yes, we ordered extra orange juice. There’s a nice lady at 10C that needs wheelchair assistance. A full update on any special needs on board for those passengers traveling through was provided.
Then I looked around and saw at least 5 of my dearest friends waiting to board the flight. It was like a reunion! We had a great visit. Turns out they were part of a group of 21 flight attendants flying up to the Salt Lake base that day for annual recurrent training.
I left the terminal with a smile on my face after seeing so many friends and having a good morning. driving home, I skipped the radio and just wound down with some Jimmy Buffet so I could get right to sleep when I got home.
I arrived home to the phone ringing. Again.
My husband.
Yes, I’m ok. Why?
He worked in an office that could see the smoke at the field. The news was anxious again. Not sure if it was DL 1141 down on landing from Atlanta or takeoff for Salt Lake. Damn. That’s a big difference. Why can’t they wait????
The other 2 flight attendants and I that worked together got on the phone while the TV carried on. We were so scared for the wheelchair lady. They started showing survivors showing up at hospitals. We would scream when we saw someone we knew. I couldn’t stop crying. Finally my husband got home and poured me a water glass full of scotch and put me in bed. I was near catatonic, rocking back and forth sobbing. The guilt was overwhelming. Did I miss something?
I had another trip that night. I finally called and told them I didn’t think I could do it. They told me it would go against my record.
This was before sensitivity training.
I went. The employee parking lot smelled burnt. I walked into the crew lounge and it looked like a funeral home. It was absolutely touching, but overwhelming. There were giant sprays of flowers and flower arrangements filling the lounge from airlines and governments and aviation companies worldwide. I read every card.
We lost our 2 most senior flight attendants that day. Sixteen souls perished in total.
One of my best friends to this day survived, she had been deadheading the first leg of a trip with her crew that day. The trauma was unspeakable, but she didn’t give in to it. Yes, it changed her, but she prevailed. Years later, when we could finally talk about it, I learned so much from her about the reality inside a cabin in an accident. I always knew that training could only take us so far, but we had to be ready for what would really happen in a crisis. She made me a better flight attendant by walking through that with me. Later, when I became a corporate flight attendant, I always tried to pass along intuitive thinking to my executives so they might think through an emergency rather than freeze. That was hugely rewarding, and they seemed particularly interested in learning new things that nobody ever shared with them. We all grew.
Those flying machines that ended up in pieces on the ground changed how we flew, how we trained and how we mentally approached flying from that point forward. Every year, those flight crews that can be so annoying and are a great target for ridicule, quietly spend a few days re-training in safety measures to stay on top of their games. Recurrent training is a stressful time for any crew member. We don’t typically speak about it overtly, we do talk about how much we dread it or hate it. The day is usually ended with some serious “debriefing” to take the stress level down. It’s not just that our skills are tested and we have to pass that is stressful. We spend a good part of the day studying accidents and incidents to learn from them so we might react better in the future. We relive these situations over and over. We re-enact horrific events over and over in mock-ups until we react appropriately without thinking.
As an industry we approach flying in storms, crew rest and communications differently after these events. I smile quietly when a new crew discusses “sterile cockpit” with me; they have no idea I was one of the last crew members to talk with the crew that created the need for that policy. I personally grew a new conviction to say something if I ever noticed something even if it meant I might get in trouble.
And I did…

Delta Flight 1141 8/31/1988 DFW-SLC